It suddenly dawns on me when I was practising Taiji last Sunday morning. ( Although I am supposed to be concentraing on movements and being present, I somehow get "aha" moments whilst doing taiji). I have read much literature about projection but didn't really reflect upon it, especially with regards to myself. Pyschological projections basically is a subconscious denial or suppression of one's feelings, thoughts or desires, which is then projected onto another person or subject.
It dawns on me that my discontent with certain things and certain people actually originate from the disappointment I harbour with MY OWN SELF. For instance, deep inside me I realise I do not have the attributes of a successful senior executive in the corporate world. However I can't accept this reality. Hence I direct my resentment onto say my husband. That explains why I usually get irritated whenever he mentions he is not keen to be promoted. Similarly my disgust with my own sloth and untidiness is suppressed and catapaulted onto my husband. This results in my endless fault finding with the things he hoards. Yes, the one who is most closed to you is usually the target.
Having found out the root of these negative feelings, we must be more empathic and forgiving towards our own Self. In other words be kind to our Self.
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