That Stupid Spider

I am a procastinator in an all rounded way, at least that is how I feel this morning whilst practising Taiji (again not concentrating of course). I was going through my head what needs to be done or could be done at home. First there is the remaining counselling case notes to complete which should take about an hour or more. Then the rest of the day should be pretty free to do one of the following:

1) Review investment portfolio which has been ignored out of pure laziness and an increasing disinteredness (even though I am constantly attacked by pangs of jealousy and envy when reading the "INVEST" pages on Sunday Times about people who multiply their capital). I remember I once preached that it is wrong to leave money idle but somehow become a victim of procastination.

2) Catch up with friends and relatives. In the morning I would be determined to call or send out some emails only to tell myself at the end of the day there is always the next day to do that.

3) File away chunks of mail and papers that pile up, in a quest to make my house look neat and beautiful (like those elegant clean cut look in show houses); or for that matter clear the dried leaves and plants which my husband is too exhausted to do so after a hard day's work.

4) Look for a supervisor to guide me in my counselling work. I have "dismissed" my previous supervisor with the excuse that "I can probably do better". Meanwhile I have yet to connect with my fellow counsellor friends to get a good reference.

5) Research into areas of interest and personal development which includes child behaviour and psychology, good recipes, places which I am likely to travel to this year.

6) Catch up with my reading and improve my Chinese

AND HOST OF OTHER THINGS THAT NEED TO BE DONE which make me feel guilty for not doing.

OK what did I end up DOING? After taiji, I read the papers, played with the cat, did my case notes, played computer game, prepared a light lunch, took my afternoon nap and shared my thoughts on procastination in my blog....

Soon, for that one or two hour window before I go out for my swim and dinner, I am almost certain the unresolved Spider Solitare Game will beat my guilt hollow. You see once in a blue moon my wayward fingers will click on the stupid spider icon and when I fail to game, I resolve to beat the system. Yes this is despite having found out through googling that some games out of random can not be won. I have never not won and I want to maintain that record. SIGH....hopefully I will find a way to come back to my senses. Haha maybe then I can share with my students how to walk away from a computer game!