Heartwarming & Upsetting

Counselling has allowed me to gain insights into some private lives which in turn help me reflect much about life in general. It is not always fulfilling though and I encounter lots of 3-step-forward 2or3-step backward scenarios. A girl who was progressing well suddenly went MIA again throwing us in bewilderment and despair. You are forced to recognise how the system or environment is crucial and has to be conducive to support change. Never before does the concept of 'conditions precedent' be so relevant and real.

This vocation throws lots of surprises sometimes heartwarming sometimes upsetting. It is especially so with teenagers. Someone whom I thought has progressed and shown maturity in reasoning during our discussions and whom I was confident was on the right path suddenly threw a curve ball and went missing. On the other hand one who is of few words and whose sessions sometimes find each of us just sitting quietly together reading our own stuff, progresses well enough for her to be discharged from the girls' home. Yet she wants to meet me regularly and is prepared to make special trips to the Home to do so, the very Home she was dying to leave behind. I wasn't sure how I was of help.

A psychologist cum teacher once made a statement which I found quite apt in many situations. She said at the end of the day people don't want others "to fix" them, they just want your presence, someone who attends and "holds their vulnerability with tenderness".

What level of deception

If you join a package tour to China the itinerary will include visits to a silk store, a gem store, a tea shop and the Baoshu Tang Healthcare centre. The tour operator in China gets a commission from the shops when tour participants make purchases. The commission is then partially passed back to the consumers in the form of lower tour package prices. Not only is time wasted at these shops in place of spending more time at tourist attractions, a lot of cold selling also takes place. Fortunately nowadays tour agencies in Singapore have begun to offer tour packages at higher prices minus such visits.

Apart from cold selling, over-pricing and trickery are well known.   For example in a silk store when sales is slow or when the tour group shows little interest in the product, the prices are continuously slashed to make the offers attractive and one-for-one is not uncommon.

From my past experience visiting various parts of China, a usual 'business model' at gem stores is when the tour group is told of its unusual luck to have their visit coincide with that of the founder of the company. The so called founder or MD then drops in to shake hands and either claims business ties with Singapore's so-and-so or claims to be the son of some ex-general in Myanmar who has a large gemstone mine. Out of goodwill and wanting to establish friendship the 'MD' then slashes the prices of the gems on sale till he claims he just breaks even.

On a recent trip to Hainan there was a visit to a gem store as well. Only this time the story told was rather different that keeps me wondering at the level of deception if any. Ours was a small group of 10 people, seasoned travelers to China whom the tour guide would have noticed were not big spenders. At the gem store we were seated in a small room where tea as usual was served. A young  salesgirl in uniform occupied us with light bantering and jokes whilst awaiting the 'teacher' who will teach us to appreciate the value of true gemstones. After quite a while the 'teacher' entered and we were taken by surprise to see a pretty young girl dressed to the hilts, porcelain skin, manicured and decked with jeweleries. She appeared very nervous and tense and begged for our patience to hear her out and not drive her away. She mentioned about her brother and her father (referring to the owners of the store indirectly) challenging her to deliver a talk about gems and rewarding her with a few days' leave from work. She said she was perplexed why no other 'teachers' wanted to deliver the talk to our group forcing her to do so. She said judging from the carriers from a tea shop we were carrying
we probably had spent a lot of money at the tea shop already. She spoke some smattering of English and claimed to be a graduate from a university in Moscow. When asked why she went to Moscow for further studies she said she wanted to stay away from the control of her family. Whilst delivering a few tips on choosing pearls she really sounded very nervous and appeared very tense whilst kept on asking whether we understood her. I find it hard to believe she is acting for she seems so fragile, pampered and naive. In fact the tour group had to constantly assure her that she was doing fine. She then went to deliver tips on differentiating between fake and true jade which she claimed was her forte which thus accounted for her being less stressed and more confident. To cut a long story short she brought us to the shop after the talk and gave steep discounts for some pearl accessories, whilst assuring the salesgirls in attendance who either were really shocked or acted shocked that she would answer to her father. In any case those were really cheap stuff and some of us bought because they were the price of costume jeweleries in Singapore. Incidentally the salesgirls in attendance with their muted look did appear as if they didn't really respect her but feared her as the boss' daughter. All had that look and I find it hard to believe they are all staging an act. If so the whole team actually did well. The final act was when the 'boss daughter' again offered steep discounts for some jade pendants again telling the staff she would answer for it. When none of us were interested she sort of played the sympathy game telling us she needed to prove herself to her fathert  None of us bought, not because we didn't really believe her but we were really broke. Whilst on our way out I did notice she did look a bit disappointed staring aimlessly into an empty room, like not knowing how to 下台 infront of her staff.

Fake or real I ain't too sure even now. For a girl who spent some years in Moscow to escape from the family's clutches, her naivety and nervousness seemed out of place. Yet the silent disdain in all the staffs' faces seemed difficult to orchestrate. Certainly there is deception but at what level is a puzzle. Perhaps the Chinese have achieved yet another level of creativity in selling.

Await an Awakening

I feel it coming intuitively, maybe sometime in the next 10 years, maybe 20 but surely in the next half century. I think it is in the form of some social revolution. Mainly because history has told us that when the privileged ignores the plight of the deprived for too long they will retaliate with pitchforks in arm. It happened in China with the communist takeover, it happened in France with the French revolution, it happened in Russian with the Russian revolution. If the current rich are more far sighted they will not resist tax policies that taxes them more proportionately. These are small losses relative to probable total loss in the long run.

Then there is the huge problem of the present generation robbing the world resources that belonged to future generations.  The huge shifts in climate and extreme weather conditions endanger and will continue to endanger the lives of people in poorer countries less prepared to tackle such changes. The world can not go on depleting the earth's resources just to get satisfaction in possessing that additional consumer product. Maybe the next generation will awaken to this predicament and bring about revolutionary changes to the world's spending habits.

The CEO of BlackRock (world's largest asset management firm) recently spoke of the next Black Swan.
(The black swan theory or theory of black swan events is a metaphor that describes an event that is rare, hard-to-predict,  beyond the realm of normal expectations in history, science, finance, and technology).
This is what he believes to be the next black swan: "Global instability through technology that is not able to create jobs fast enough. When we talk about structural unemployment, when we talk about a more fragmented society, when we talk about a society that has greater inequities when it comes to income, it's only going to be accelerating, and much more in the developing world."

My intuitive feel of a black swan is a revolutionary change in the social and value system that will address the great divide between the rich and the deprived and mend fragmented societies. I have a feeling it may give rise to a new era, although in what exact form I do not know, but it may be something like the Renaissance that came after the Dark Ages. Perhaps our children will see this awakening.

The Ripples one Creates.

Listened to a BBC podcast which interviewed some Jews in Paris. Amidst the waves of rising antisemitism in Europe and with the recent attack on a Kosher supermarket in Paris killing 4 people many Jews in Europe are thinking of migrating to Israel. When the BBC reporter visited a synagogue cum kindergarten in Paris there were French soldiers guarding the gates. Many Jews felt they didn't want their children to grow up in constant fear.. Meanwhile Israeli Prime Minister Netanyahu has been calling for Jews to return. This however only accelerates the Israeli settlement activities in West Bank and East Jerusalem, stirring the wrath of Palestinians and in a vicious cycle further fueled terrorist attacks on the Jews in Europe. As I listened to the podcast I kept seeing the concept of cause and effect taking place in this whole chain of events across countries.

Indeed this concept surfaces in my mind very so often nowadays, even when I am watching TV dramas.The TV serial which I am currently watching, "The Overachievers" tells the story of how a tycoon's bias and favortism towards his children proved too tough a test to sustain the initial close bonding amongst the siblings. The ensuing tragedies arising out of acts of jealousy brought about tragedies which in turn brought deep sorrows to the man who started it all. Being a HK TV serial it is as usual exaggerated and dramatic. Yet the truth still holds about how a person's actions have many intended and unintended repercussions which often bounce back on the doer.

Another observation is how the single act of one person creates a rippling and multiplier effect on other people. A more mundane example perhaps is that of a wife who creates a scene in the morning causing the husband to enter office in a foul mood which in turn spoils the day for his subordinates who in turn may go home feeling miserable venting their frustration on their family members and so forth and so forth in a constantly widening circle. Of course the reverse is also true and there are endless stories about the ripple effect of random acts of kindness.

It all boils down to being constantly aware whether our speech and actions may cause harm or distress to ourselves and others. There may be many unintended victims one never dreams of harming or the multitudes of ripples one never imagines creating.

As someone once said "I can not improve or suffer myself without diffusing good or evil around me through an ever enlarging sphere".

Beyond the confines of 38 Oxley?

LKY has willed that his house in Oxley Road be demolished upon his death. He had observed that  conserved houses he had visited like Shakespeare and Nehru were in shambles and were costly to preserve. He spoke of how the demolition would send the land value of his house and surrounding houses up. The family urged Singaporeans to respect his wishes.

I feel LKY may have under estimated the power of a historical icon on a netizen's identity and sense of belonging to his/her country. Already we do not have a hinterland with a mountain or lake that will stand forever to which we can feel attached. Beyond the well manicured Botanical Gardens (which we are incidentally fighting for World Heritage Site status) and a potential buzzling state of art "LKY International Airport" we do need more places where one can saunter into imagining the political meetings that took place in that very room decades or a century ago and absorbing the spirits of those moments. Don't we get those goose pimples when we visit some museums? Hey some emotional needs when fulfilled can not be valued against the soaring condo prices in that same piece of property.

Soren Kierkagaard, the great Danish philosopher told a parable about a spider who lived in the ceiling of a barn. One day it discovered a single strand of web that brought it down to the floor of the barn where it then built a web and amassed a lot of food as in flies and little insects. It became fat and prosperous. A long time passed and one day when surveying its kingdom it came across that single strand of web hanging from nowhere. Thinking it did not serve much purpose, it clipped it whereupon his whole domain collapsed.

Yes for LKY "His legacy lies beyond the confines of 38, Oxley Road". For many of us who are not Titans or men of great reason like him and who are frail in emotional needs, we need to be often reminded of that single spider web upon which our whole world and origin hangs.

Yet we must respect the wishes of one who gave us so much.

Second chance ?

I had a chance to watch Amos Yee's video before it was taken off the internet. Minus the profanities, rudeness, defiance and nonsense, I can also spot passion, conviction and brightness in this 16 year old kid who not only speaks very eloquently but also shows that he has given certain things more thought than most teenagers or adults for the matter. My immediate reaction was feeling that his talent would be wasted if his future is ruined by the legal prosecution brought against him. I likened him to the kid in "Goodwill Hunting".

I then did a bit of googling and found some description of him when he joined a writing club at 13. His teacher at the club spoke of him as being confident, well spoken, always asking questions and reading things well above his age. A report in The New Paper also portrayed him as a precocious boy with a thirst for knowledge.

Then someone suggests that he may be an Indigo Child. I then found a website that lists the following as traits of an Indigo Child:

1. May be strong willed independent thinkers who prefer to do their own thing rather than comply with authority figures/parents

2. Have a wisdom and level of caring beyond their youthful experience

3. Traditional Parenting and discipline strategies don’t appear effective  with these children. If you try to force an issue, a power struggle is the typical outcome.

4. Energetically, Indigos are vibrating at a much higher frequency so they can get scrambled by negative energy (human or machine)

5. Emotionally they can be reactive and may have problems with anxieties, depression or temper rages if not energetically balanced

6. Are creative right brain thinkers, but may struggle to learn in a traditional left brain school system

7. Often Indigos are diagnosed with ADD and ADHD since they appear impulsive (their brain can process information faster) and they require movement to help keep them better focused.

8. Indigos are very intuitive, and may see hear or know things that seem unexplainable.

9. Indigos have more problems with food and environmental sensitivities, since their system is more finely tuned.

10. When their needs are not met, these children seem self centered and demanding, although this is not their true nature.

11. These children have incredible gifts and potential, but they may be shut down when not properly nurtured and accepted

This boy did strike me as emotionally reactive and charged with high energy almost like in a rage but nevertheless is intelligent and has potentials. Indigo child or not it would really be a pity if he is convicted and housed in a detention centre or boy's home which will definitely aggravate his defiance and rebellious nature. On the other hand if properly guided and nurtured we may have a genius in the making as in "Goodwill Hunting".

Is Singapore prepared to give him a second chance?

Be it a Titan or an Ordinary Man

2 deaths in a week.

My husband''s close friend passed away last Sunday. Though diagnosed with late stage cancer it was still quite a sudden passing. Then on Monday morning we woke up to the news of the passing of our country's founding father.

The friend was my husband's JC classmate and the clique of 6 friends has without fail an annual CNY gathering since school days which subsequently included their families.  At the final farewell at the crematorium the men dabbed their eyes and one broke down in loud sobs. Earlier on another friend had loaded the class photo on their What's App. During the wake there was much recalling of stories and anecdotes, often so funny that the group broke out in laughter. Seemingly inappropriate but really quite telling of what life really is "Ten thousand joys and ten thousand sorrows".

With the passing of Lee Kuan Yew, the media is flooded with tributes, accolades, historical moments as well as hundreds of personal stories and encounters. I joined the queue to pay my respect at Parliament House. I was a bit disappointed for not being able to catch a glimpse of his face and the filing past was over before I knew it. My greatest regret is not having seen him in person but I am grateful to be able to bow before him and say a heart felt "Thank You". It can never be repeated too often that without him we will never be what we are today, myself and every of my family inclusive. 
The media jolted our memory of all the crisis our country managed to ride over through his determination and grit though at times he seemed like a bulldozer.

And I wonder why upon every death the recalled events often seem more clear and make more sense.  Like the recounts of funny situations by my husband and his friends which weren't perceived as being so funny then or the often incomprehensible measures spearheaded by LKY which now regarded as remarkably wise. Perhaps it just boils down to the lack of awareness and wisdom of an ordinary man.

An account by Lee Wei Ling about the impact of her mother's illness on her father moved me deeply. She told of how her father grew more frail by the day as he watched his wife suffered. I can imagine his pain when her health deteriorated and was unable to respond to him. Below is an excerpt:

Now, in October 2008, Papa knew that if Mama survived she would never be able to walk independently. But he felt that so long as she knew she was an important part of his life, she would still find life worth living.
He told her: “We have been together for most of our lives. You cannot leave me alone now. I will make your life worth living in spite of your physical handicap.”
She replied: “That is a big promise.”
Papa said: “Have I ever let you down?”
- See more at: http://www.straitstimes.com/news/singapore/more-singapore-stories/story/remembering-lee-kuan-yew-daughter-lee-wei-ling-mr-lee-fa#sthash.3Koa3E1l.dpuf

"Now, in October 2008, Papa knew that if Mama survived she would never be able to walk independently. But he felt that so long as she knew she was an important part of his life, she would still find life worth living.

He told her: “We have been together for most of our lives. You cannot leave me alone now. I will make your life worth living in spite of your physical handicap.”

She replied: “That is a big promise.”

Papa said: “Have I ever let you down?”".......

 

"Mama deteriorated further after she returned home. Finally, she reached a stage when she could not even speak and seemed unaware of her surroundings. But she was always aware of Papa’s presence."

Now, in October 2008, Papa knew that if Mama survived she would never be able to walk independently. But he felt that so long as she knew she was an important part of his life, she would still find life worth living.
He told her: “We have been together for most of our lives. You cannot leave me alone now. I will make your life worth living in spite of your physical handicap.”
She replied: “That is a big promise.”
Papa said: “Have I ever let you down?”
- See more at: http://www.straitstimes.com/news/singapore/more-singapore-stories/story/remembering-lee-kuan-yew-daughter-lee-wei-ling-mr-lee-fa#sthash.3Koa3E1l.dpuf

I am again reminded of the "Ten thousand joys ad ten thousand sorrows" in everyone's life be it a Titan or an ordinary man. We just have to embrace them as best as we can,