A little Inertia may be a Good thing

 

Truth be told, this Covid Pandemic has caused some inertia in me. I have kind of adapted to staying at home most of the time. I was not really exhilarated when informed that some of the Pre-Covid voluntary work and certain other activities will resume. In the early days of restrictions, I often wondered upon waking up how to occupy myself for the day. When reading about all the great work and sacrifices our local 'heroes' were doing I felt a bit like a useless person lazing around. This was especially so when other members in the family were having zoom office meetings at home.

Along the way I have learned to enjoy gardening and sewn a few sets of curtain. When I am totally absorbed in my garden or when my eyes are glued to the needle of the sewing machine chugging along, my mind is not ruminating or side tracking. Maybe you can say I am present. Although when telling stories at the library I am also quite 'present', the back of my mind may still be sneaking in questions like "Why is the parent at the back looking so bored?" or "Did I just make a grammatical error?" Really a lot of side ruminations occurring in most of our activities are related to reflection of self or image of self. Only when one is fully engaged can one be with the flow.

I also began writing another blog to document my thoughts on how I understand a child's mind through sandplay therapy. I went over some of the past case notes especially of cases which have left deep impression on me. As I reread and ponder, I marvel at how this media really helps a child to express what they can never speak about or to reveal subconscious issues which they themselves may not know. Yet this type of therapy is never popular with parents nor with institutions as it is often viewed as mere play with little evidence of usefulness. To be very honest although I strongly believe in its effectiveness as a form of expression I can't really attest that expression by itself is a good enough form of catharsis. Moreover it is a form of therapy that takes time for the child to feel safe after several sessions to explore deeper into their emotional self. Very few parents have this type of patience or can afford such time. Yet as I write about it I feel energised. I shall continue to review the case notes and write about it. It may lead me to some new directions or it may not but I will just go with the flow.

Again this quote comes to mind:

"Don't ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive."- Howard Thurman- author, pholosopher, educator.

That perhaps is the meaning of  "Being" and that is why we are called human beings.