Release of my Repressed Anger

Haha I was asked why I have not blogged for days. As you could have imagined the past week I have been occupied with "national issues". I have acquired a new addiction of posting comments about GE 2011 on some websites including Yahoo Singapore.

It all started last Thursday. I was having a quick dinner at home with my brother and sister-in-law who have travelled all the way from Bukit Panjang to accompany me to the WP rally, when the door bell rang twice with no one in sight when I went to check. At the 3rd ring, a group of PAP people were outside the gate announcing the arrival of the PAP MP (the first 2 rings I supposed were pressed by the lackeys in preparation). The conversation went as follow:

MP: Oh you are having dinner?
Me: Ah yes, we are having a quick dinner and rushing off to attend the rally at Hougang Central
MP: Are you a WP supporter?
Me: Yes
MP: Are you going to reconsider?
Me: That's why we are going to attend the rally to see what they've got to say
One PAP lackey: Aren't you afraid your estate will be downgraded?
Me: Sometimes we got to sacrifice a bit what

I related the conversation to my children over skype and they could not believe that the PAP lackey was so dumb as to threaten voters. I told them the ministers are doing it too. Sure enough 2 days later, MM used the word "repent" for Aljunied voters who vote for WP (I am in Aljunied). Fueled by the sentiments at the rally I spent quite a bit of time at home visitng websites and venting my angry comments as well.

I find that I am especially emotional about the unfair play. So I have a comment which went like "I can not understand why anyone will support a party that not only cultivates personal self interest,but practices foul play in broad daylight (rezoning constituencies and using tax money to their political advantage)". I also have some comments about the party's haugtiness, arrogance, insensitivity etc. What surprises me is that whilst I write I am really very vexed and I feel hot and flustered.

Reflecting upon my emotions I suspect I may be projecting my repressed anger (over unfair play) on the PAP. As a child I received my primary education in a very prestigious school attended by many rich girls. Many teachers were obnoxious. They not only favoured those rich girls but also bullied the children from poor families who of course also never fared that well academically. A few of such hurtful incidents are still fresh in my head after almost half a century! Looks like the PAP is now offering me a chance to vent my long repressed anger and a chance for closure.